Sometimes I Think I'll Feel Better Dead

"Sometimes I think I'll feel better dead" is a line from a song by Nils Lofgren and his group, Grin.  When I looked up the lyrics and found this verse, an emotional connection within myself occurred - hey, I feel like that a lot.  I often think I'll feel better and be better when I'm dead.  This implies unsatisfaction with my life.  This is partly because of self-criticism, but mostly because of the world we live in.  I'm sensitive to  bad things happening and use them as evidence for the doctrine of original sin and Christian teaching about the world being under the power of the Devil (cf. Rom. 8).  

I eagerly read the novel, Being Dead (1999) by Jim Crace on account of my wish for death.  I think when I die I'll be free of the evils of this world and into the blessed life of the kingdom of God (i.e., if God is willing to have me).  Ah, the next life.