Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Approach to Meaning

Some things came together today, Tuesday, August 13, 2019, for me in the area of finding meaning in experience.  First, I read online the daily Scripture - Dt.  31:1-8; Mt. 18:1-5,10,12-14 - which I try to do each day on USCCB.  Second, as I was scrolling through the Sirius/XM lineup on my car radio, I stopped at the 'Phish' channel and listened as I drove to my Mom's and from my Mom's apartment after my visit.  Trey Anastasio played a song from King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard, "Fishing for Fishies," which I liked.  Yesterday's Gospel reading was Mt. 17:22-27 and I'd been pondering its potential meanings off and on for a day now.  The 2nd part of the passage involves fish.

   24 After Jesus and his disciples arrived in Capernaum, the collectors of the two-drachma temple tax came to Peter and asked, “Doesn’t your teacher pay the temple tax?”
25 “Yes, he does,” he replied.
When Peter came into the house, Jesus was the first to speak. “What do you think, Simon?” he asked. “From whom do the kings of the earth collect duty and taxes—from their own children or from others?”
26 “From others,” Peter answered.
“Then the children are exempt,” Jesus said to him. 27 “But so that we may not cause offense, go to the lake and throw out your line. Take the first fish you catch; open its mouth and you will find a four-drachma coin. Take it and give it to them for my tax and yours.”
New International Version (NIV)

Peter and other disciples of Jesus were fishermen.

The lyrics of the King Gizzard song advocate against fishing.

  Fishing for fishies
Don't make them feel happy
Or me neither
I feel so sorry for fishies

It seems like cruelty to me
And I'm hungry, leave them be

I don't want to be fishing for fish
I just want to let them freely swim
I don't want to be fishing for fish
I just want to let them freely swim
All heights honk
Egos tying knots being fate
Don't do it
You ain't a God
Don't hunt salmon, cod or carp


In our day, we have the environmental problem of overfishing and possible extinction of species.  This was not an issue in Jesus' era, two-thousand years ago.

I'm still thinking and pondering.     



Wednesday, June 5, 2019

To See Jesus

    I apologize for beginning this post with a picture.  There's something inherently wrong with pictures, a deception of the viewer that goes unnoticed.  This particular picture of Jesus is very popular, having been seen and recognized by many people in Christendom since it was painted by Walter Sallman in 1940.  A copy used to hang on a bedroom wall in my childhood home.  It hints at certain qualities the ideal person would have.  Jesus is a hero, a model of holiness, righteousness, but these attributes might not be seen by looking at him as he was, but in pondering his teachings.
A question - how does one "ride an endless train to the end of the line."  How can there be an end to what is endless?  Is this not a paradox?
The quote comes from the first verse of Randy Bachman's song, 'Lookin' Out for No. 1.'  Indeed it contains a contradiction between the words "endless" and "end."  As a piece of advice - "every day is an endless train, you got to ride it to the end of the line" - it'd be rejected by logical positivists and analytic philosophy.  Yet there is sense to the saying.  Days go by in humdrum sameness and end in night, usually with sleep.  The repetition of our days makes them seem endless.  A day shall come, for all, that ends in death.  In between, we have lots of choices.  To see Jesus, to want to see Jesus, because of what he represents, could be one of these choices, a decision reaffirmed day after day.

I came ... not to do my will, but the will of  him who sent me.  (Jn 6.38)
Who has seen me has seen the Father.  (Jn  14.9)
... seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.  (Mt 7.7)
Thy will be done on earth.  (Mt 6.10)
Whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother, sister and mother.  (Mt 12.50)
... walk in the day, ... those who walk at night stumble.  (Jn 11.9)
Labor not for food that perishes, but for that which lasts.  (Jn 6.27)
My food is to do the will of him who sent me.  (Jn 4.34)
I must walk today and tomorrow and the next day.  (Lk 13.33)        

Thank-you for walking and showing the path to life, Master.  I follow.  I'm so glad to have your words.

              

Monday, February 18, 2019

The Real World

The real world is the world in which God may exist.  The question is, how to turn potential into reality.  Is there a way to turn the possibility of God into the actuality of God?  Yes there is a way and that way is called faith.  Faith is belief in God.  Faith is understanding that a supreme Being exists. 

To be noted about faith is that it's an individual, personal viewpoint.  There are people without faith, those who don't believe in God.  This is the real world.

For the faithful, miracles happen.  To infidels, miracles aren't works of God, but rare occurrences which might be explained scientifically.  So we are back to potentiality.  We live in a world of possibility.       

If a person says that God does not exist, that one isn't living in the real world, for God may be. 

Thursday, January 10, 2019

From Detroit, USA to Cape Town, South Africa: a Humble Man & his Work

A man who embodies humility, humbleness, is Sixto Rodriguez.  Born in Detroit, Michigan, 1942, currently age 76, Rodriguez is a musician, singer/songwriter, construction worker, husband, father and political activist.  He has become famous, worldwide, as a result of the 2012 oscar-winning documentary, 'Searching for Sugar Man', but he was famous in South Africa and a couple of other countries before that because of his music, two record albums, 'Cold Fact' (1970) and 'Coming from Reality' (1971).  His songs have been an inspiration to many.  They may be heard on YouTube.

Humility is a quality of human personality, opposite to egotistical pride.  Merriam-Webster defines the noun thusly, "freedom from pride or arrogance : the quality or state of being humble."  To be humble is a way of life or personal attitude advocated in world religions.  In Christianity, many thinkers and leaders have expounded on humbleness through the centuries.  Of course actions do not always agree with words, practice doesn't always go along with principle.  The importance of humility in Christian morality comes from the life and teaching of Jesus of Nazareth.  When Jesus was arrested, his followers tried to defend him, but Jesus didn't allow that, surrendering himself in submission to God's will (Jn 18 and par).  Some sayings of Jesus that bear on the meaning of humility:
 Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted (Mt 23.12).
    So those who are last will be first, and those who are first will be last (Mt 20.16)." 
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth (Mt 5.5).
Love your brother as your soul; watch over him like the apple of your eye (GTh 25).
Whoever among you becomes least will know the kingdom (GTh 46).
Love your neighbor as yourself (Mk 12.31).

Sixto Rodriguez gave up the music business and turned to renovating abandoned houses in Detroit.  He did the dirty work of this job day after day, year after year.  The music has never left him, however and he keeps playing guitar, performing his songs.  He has run for elected office in Detroit, but never got enough votes.  His reticence and humility, as evidenced in the documentary film, are impressive, indicating a well-grounded person, or depending on viewpoint, may elicit scorn and a wave of dismissal.  He is a stranger and a friend.

Further reading:  Craig Strydom & Stephen Segerman, Sugar Man: The Life, Death and Resurrection  of Sixto Rodriguez (South Africa:  Penguin, 2015)

Sunday, September 30, 2018

The Death of Wayne Keenan

My friend, Wayne Keenan, died on Friday, August 31, 2018.  He was around 71 years of age and suffered from heart problems and diabetes.  He was a single, white male and had red hair (his nickname was 'red').  He received a general discharge from the U.S. Army and held many jobs up until the age of 33 (approximate), when his application for disability insurance with U.S. Social Security was approved on psychological grounds.  Wayne had mental problems and I'm not sure of the source of those problems, but I know he had a rough upbringing and youth in West Orange, NJ.  After the deaths of his grandparents, who had raised him, Wayne lived in orphanages and it was in one of these that he was tied to a bed and raped by older boys.  Wayne never knew who his father was and his mother was unable to care for him, though Wayne remained friendly toward his mother.

I first met Wayne in 1970, maybe it was '71, when I was 15 years old.  We met at Romeo's Pizzeria in Orange, a local teen hangout.  Wayne was a delivery driver for Romeo's.  We became close through the years owing to various shared adventures with the DeMarchi boys, whose family owned Romeo's. 

Around the age of 34, Wayne moved into a subsidized apartment in a senior building on Oakwood Avenue in Orange.  Here he lived the rest of his life, though he was always trying to move into other senior buildings, especially down the shore.  Wayne liked to fish, especially deep-sea fishing.  He had lots of fishing equipment.  He had a dream of living near the ocean and fishing every day. 

In his cluttered apartment, Wayne and I had many meetings.  We would have discussions about all sorts of things; local politics, religion, philosophy, fishing, girls, the end of the world, God, Kierkegaard, love, enmity among residents in his building.  We also watched TV.  We'd  often eat out at the local Burger King or once in a while at IHOP.  Wayne bought many things from Home Shopping Club and often would call me to come over and set up this or that gadget and explain how to work it. 

Wayne Keenan was a big source of encouragement and fellow-feeling for me.  I always felt comfortable in his presence. 

On that Friday, my phone rang around 7pm, but I was already asleep and didn't answer.  The next morning, I got the recorded message from Wayne's dialysis center to please call them.  I could not get through to them that day nor the next and of course, I called Wayne's apartment, but he didn't answer the phone.  I left a message for him.  I called two local hospitals to find out whether Wayne Keenan was a patient - "no he wasn't."  I reached the dialysis center on Monday by phone and they offered me condolences on the death of my friend, Wayne.  They explained what happened on Friday, that Wayne's heart stopped and they did everything to try to revive him, but were unsuccessful.  The Fire Department was there, also emergency medical technicians.  They told me Wayne's body was in the morgue at East Orange General Hospital. 

I cried several times between getting the news of Wayne's passing and going to the hospital morgue.  I called my Mom and told her the news and she said she was so sorry for me.  I waited a long time in the hospital lobby for someone to take me to the morgue.  A nurse supervisor arrived and conducted me there.  At the morgue door, a security officer had me sign a paper and we all went in.  The body was in bag on a gurney.  I unzipped it and saw Wayne - his body anyway.  His eyes were open and in his mouth was the emergency breathing tube for administering oxygen.  I clasped his hands and said some prayers.  I looked around at the other gurneys with their occupied body-bags.  I looked at the two people standing near and said thank-you and we left.  This was how it ended for Wayne and me. 

Sunday, August 12, 2018

Film Review: 'Hereafter,' Directed by Clint Eastwood

This 2010 movie didn't get a good score on IMDb or Rotten Tomatoes.   This means that people didn't understand it and did not enjoy it, generally speaking.  I've just watched it on Netflix and I rate it 5 out of 5 stars.  The film is understated, flowing softly, like the music that accompanies it.  It tells a beautiful story, not very realistic, I would say, but potentially real, like much fiction.  The film is about life and death and life after death.

The film begins with a French couple at a hotel at a seaside resort who are soon to leave, but not soon enough, for the area is devastated by a tsunami.  The woman (actress Cecile de France) is knocked unconscious and is rescued, but apparently she had died and experienced visions of the hereafter before reviving.  We watch her life unfold from then on and her outlook is radically changed. 

Another main character is a psychic, played by Matt Damon, who is trying to abandon his psychical gifts, but his brother won't let him because there is money to be made.  This American psychic heads to England to get away from his brother's plans, where he meets above mentioned tsunami survivor.  Before this meeting, the psychic encounters a boy (actor Frankie McLaren) whose twin brother had been killed in an auto accident.  The boy needs closure and counseling regarding his sibling's death and our psychic is able to furnish same.  This boy then plays a role in bringing the psychic and the girl together.     

Thus this film is partly a love story, but in the main, it is propelled by belief in life after death.  Humans die and continue on in "weightless" form.  That is the solemn message of Eastwood's film and it is a joy to behold.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Sadness of Suicide

I just watched the movie, Goodbye Solo, a somber film about an old man with nothing for which to live and his taxi-driver acquaintance, who tries to save him.  It has made me sad.

 My shirt is stained with chocolate
my mind is stained with sex


Unfortunately life isn't clean. 
About halfway through, I realized the film would not end well.  I'm glad though, to have seen the movie, for it supplies more ammunition for my final take on human life.  It's not good.  It's in need of change. 
I offer this proposition for you to ponder:  everyone who talks is lying, better not to talk. 
I wished the old man could have been saved. No longer; now I accept his sad demise, just like his taxi-driver friend.  The truth was in the taxi-driver's eyes at the end of the film.  It wasn't stated in words.  Can one state the truth of death in words?  Can one die and then talk about it? 

Pontius Pilate asked a pertinent question when he put to Jesus of Nazareth, "what is truth?"  Jesus had said, ".. for this I was born, to witness to the truth.  All who belong to truth listen to my voice."  Pilate naturally asked Jesus his question.  Notice that no reply from Jesus is recorded. 

The truth of the important things cannot really be put into words.  Words are not all we have to express truth. The eyes, facial expression, hand movement, timbre or sound of voice, surroundings, as well as words may express truth, but not fully. 

Art is a vehicle for truth.

So sad. . . so sad.